parents drive me crazyyyy

me and my parents dont usually fight.
i thinkits because they live a fair way away so we get more than enough space from eachother.
but right now, even though they are 5 hours away- driving me UP THE WALL.
usually they are laidback about everything, dont intefere in anything etc.
and because they are so stressed about the drought they are acting irrationally! bf and me even had a fight last night because of them, getting angry at me (and inadvertently him) for something, can u believe that?!
i mean, seriously- my parents would NEVER get angry at someone like that (bf), or involve him in stuff.
its weird and i dont like dealing with it
i dont really like dealing with anything that upsets me really..
haha

sad news..

i have some bad news.

see the dog that i posted pictures of below?

yes, well i found out today that he died, a few days ago.

see he was living with my dad (dad loved him too much to give him back!) on our farm, and dad ran him over, as tends to happen on the farm. ive found so many dogs have short life spans there, because there are so many things- utes, snakes, rat poison etc.....i just didnt think he would die, of course it was an accident but i thought he was smart to stay out of the way but obviously not.

i feel really sad because he was such a great dog. he really had a personality you know? not just like other dogs, he would do the funniest (and naughtiest) things. like i would open the gate,

and before i knew it he took off downt eh street (once at nighttime!). then he would stop, look at me, and wait till i got just close enough...then take off again. this went on all the way down the street and i was SO MAD by the end!

or how i would go to work all day and i would come home to find him perched on a box leaning over the fence waiting for me.

i havent seen him much in the past months,  after he moved back to the farm, but my dad used to send me pictures on my phone of him on the porch, or muddy and dirty after playing in the dam and such.

i feel really upset because he was so great, and this is the second dog ive lost to such circumstances in the space of 3 years, its almost like im getting used to it which isnt good.

however i feel more sorry for dad- i dont know if he was the one who accidently did it (i didnt want to know details) but he loved him so much, and i know how upset he is feeling.

the worst thing is- they didnt even tell me! i only found out today because they wanted to wait until they got down here to tell me in person. but i went over to my grandmas today to visit and she said 'im sorry about the white dog, your dad was so upset' and i thought...thats weird...nobody said anything to me...i thought she was talking about my old dog- (she gets so confused and stuff nowadays). but just to be sure i called dad and he had to tell me- he told her not to say anything to me but obviously she forgot.

anyway, i was supposed to be getting a puppy for christmas for the bf. i thought the puppy and my other dog could be friends and play together but i guess not now...

anyway just thought id let that out here.

its funny when something/someone dies- all u can talk about is all the things they used to do. the bf came home from work when i called him, and all i wanted to talk about was what he (dog) did this time, or that time, its like you just want to grab every memory you have of them and keep them, like they are still there.

some really really important stuff

living with the bf is going great. well to be honest, its not much different from before, we still spent every night together before anyway. but its our house, all my stuff is in one place, more freedom with no housemate. its nice cooking together and everything more as well, since we always used to eat out for some reason.
there is one thing though, that is just bugging me out.
we dont have a dishwasher- fair enough, its only two of us and its best we dont to save water.
but he has a problem doing dishes. AGH.
we are sposed to take it in turns, fair right?
well, apparently not.
i do my turn fine, but he doesnt do them. until they pile up, and up, and u cant see anything but for dirty dishes. then i say- bf can u please do these?
'no i dont want to. ill do them tomorrow'.
and so it goes on, until eventually i get so frustrated (or someone is coming round and i have to) that i do them. and he KNOWS i will do them.
and i would refuse until he had to- but then if someone comes over, how embarrasing it that to have them there?!
ok granted- he has never had to do dishes, what with there was a dishwasher at his house before. but nevertheless its not that hard to LEARN. and adjust to have to do them...
it is infuriating! how do i force him to do them, without sounding like a nag?

silly me

ive been thinking...why was i so stupid to name my blog little20yearold? 

1. its a lame name

2. what will i do when i turn 21? duh. 

so close i can almost taste it..

so I've basically been a hermit for the last month or so while trying to finish assignments and study for exams.

my last one is tomorrow, but its a doozy :(. property law.....

its seriously made me consider getting rid of rights posessions and land...living in some utopian society where nobody does anything bad and everyone lives together...haha, then at least it would make my degree a lot easier!

i guess i would have one at all...

anyway regardless...i can WAIT till this time tomorrow- i will have a glass (or two) wine in my hand, out on the town! (what town..haha)

and im FREE for a summer! no assignments, studying, opening any law or history book...i cant wait.

that is all

stuff

hahaha ok so i totally added seth on facebook. this story is great, im so glad it hasn't ended yet! i LOVE that he has a blog....

ahh such actitivies are great from distracting me from what i really should be doing....property law...the worst. yuk.

i did go see a movie last night as a break though, death race (bf's choice) i thought it was cool though! jason stratham...is intense. i cant work out if he is hot or just scary..

dog stuff

this is my dog, who now lives on the farm with my dad (he kidnapped him)
This is him and my old dog (who died a few years ago). they really want to get outside and play hahai miss having a dog so much. every time i see one, i smile and feel happy, all i want is a little puppy to take for walks and wash and talk to when im by myself (haha), to grow into a big dog that is always happy to see me. i miss my dog! (but i cant take him back..dad loves him too much, and on a farm he is able to run and chase ducks and its basically dog heaven- how can i rip him out of that?)

romeo and juliet

i'm not very good at studying. i don't have some 'study space' where i can sit down and realllly concentrate. actually, i think i pretty much do all i can to pretend im NOT studying. i sit on the couch, with papers and books surrounding me in a big mess, often while the tv is on. so i can watch and write at the same time, productive no? i figure it works out ok for me...i mean a couple of years ago back in year 12, final year of school, i used to sit on the computer with music talking to people on msn, and i managed a damn good mark, so i guess it works for me.

anyway so good ol foxtel, im basically watching movies all day. and the other night it was romeo and juliet (leo in his VERY hot days).

this movie got me thinking, and also a bit emotional.

is it possible to love someone like that? its such a nice idea...and while its tragic romeo and juliet died like that, maybe it worked better for them- for that instant, consuming love to be immortilised......before the every day life, the mundane, before they just simply got used to each other being around.

oh it still would have been fantastic im sure, but with such intense feeelings- cant you imagine them having some MASSIVE blown up fights? i mean, where the hell do they go for christmas lunch- their families are enemies!

whoops, i didnt mean to make a joke.

i just think it is so amazing to think that something like that can occur between two people- my favourite scene, with the fish tank- that they can just look at each other and just know.

i dont wish for that with the bf. i am perfectly happy with the love we have. it needs to be normal, otherwise how could i get any uni work done? id be sitting around writing poetry about him all day!