i watched a movie called 'butterfly on the wheel' last night.

yes, i am a big movie buff. although the bf is even bigger, and we watch a lotttt of movies together.

so B.O.A.W.

i liked it better than he did. so many twists and turns, although it was easy to keep up i suppose. nevertheless i did enjoy trying to guess what was next, who was going to pop up and what it was all really about- why the hell did Tom kidnap their poor kid?

I admit, it was slightly unsettling seeing Pierce Brosnan play such ..a bad guy. i really hated him. 

and i was suprised by how upset i was when he began destroying parts of their lives, i.e. the material parts. a bit shallow of me.

the thing about it is, i (think) i am a very logical person. as in, i think of everything that could happen and work it out what will happen next. why is why i am always thinking about my relationships and so forth- trying to work them out in a logical way (which is why i am always in strife with my thoughts- relationships ARENT LOGICAL....my brain just hasnt caught up with this yet and not sure if it ever will!)

so in movies- some people probably just involve themselves in the emotion and so on- i am always thinking of the logical. if someone destroys all a persons money or steal it, i am thinking ahead to where will they get money from? He loses his job- how will he get a new one, could he move somewhere, they could sell their house to get money, etc etc.

murder movies is where i am at my worst. someone gets murdered- i work out if they could be caught, what evidence they would need to clean up- (perhaps part of being a law student?). i cant just accept that it is a movie and so no, it hasnt happened in real life. but people DO GET murdered in real life, and people get away with it....so i am always thinking, in this situation, could they? 

or even when they are punching people up, i am thinking, assault, etc etc.

i know i know, annoying, but its all in my own head, and its just because i am always thinking. it can make movie watching frustrating at times. 

roadhouse was one movie where i was able to see- while it was illogical- you could just appreciate the events as a movie and what they were. When those girls murdered there was a little light in my brain that said 'well they wouldnt get away with that...and what about the car? will they pay the guy?' but at the same time- i completely enjoyed everything that was happening.

anyway....Butterfly on a Wheel was pretty good. i never did truly understand the name. maybe i didnt concentrate hard enough.