i watched a movie called 'butterfly on the wheel' last night.

yes, i am a big movie buff. although the bf is even bigger, and we watch a lotttt of movies together.

so B.O.A.W.

i liked it better than he did. so many twists and turns, although it was easy to keep up i suppose. nevertheless i did enjoy trying to guess what was next, who was going to pop up and what it was all really about- why the hell did Tom kidnap their poor kid?

I admit, it was slightly unsettling seeing Pierce Brosnan play such ..a bad guy. i really hated him. 

and i was suprised by how upset i was when he began destroying parts of their lives, i.e. the material parts. a bit shallow of me.

the thing about it is, i (think) i am a very logical person. as in, i think of everything that could happen and work it out what will happen next. why is why i am always thinking about my relationships and so forth- trying to work them out in a logical way (which is why i am always in strife with my thoughts- relationships ARENT LOGICAL....my brain just hasnt caught up with this yet and not sure if it ever will!)

so in movies- some people probably just involve themselves in the emotion and so on- i am always thinking of the logical. if someone destroys all a persons money or steal it, i am thinking ahead to where will they get money from? He loses his job- how will he get a new one, could he move somewhere, they could sell their house to get money, etc etc.

murder movies is where i am at my worst. someone gets murdered- i work out if they could be caught, what evidence they would need to clean up- (perhaps part of being a law student?). i cant just accept that it is a movie and so no, it hasnt happened in real life. but people DO GET murdered in real life, and people get away with it....so i am always thinking, in this situation, could they? 

or even when they are punching people up, i am thinking, assault, etc etc.

i know i know, annoying, but its all in my own head, and its just because i am always thinking. it can make movie watching frustrating at times. 

roadhouse was one movie where i was able to see- while it was illogical- you could just appreciate the events as a movie and what they were. When those girls murdered there was a little light in my brain that said 'well they wouldnt get away with that...and what about the car? will they pay the guy?' but at the same time- i completely enjoyed everything that was happening.

anyway....Butterfly on a Wheel was pretty good. i never did truly understand the name. maybe i didnt concentrate hard enough.

ding ding

note to self:
if something is extremely important and needs to be take somewhere, my brain will inevitably push it to back of my mind and cause me to forget it.
SO, i think a solution is...
to trick my brain into thinking that something important is ACTUALLY not important at all. kind of like reverse psychology. then if my brain thinks it is unimportant, it WILL remember it and will then definitely go DING!! when i see the thing i am supposed to take while i am walking out the door. or DING when i am walking to my car so i cant go back in and get it. or DING DING DING at some point before it is too late to get it and i am walking into work and A says oh did u bring ..... and i go...ooops.

Why is my brain so hopeless sometimes?

A Few Good Men

" i want THE TRUTH!"

"YOU CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH"

ahh ive waited a long time to see this particular line, which i did last night. and it lived up to all expectations.

i saw A Few Good Men as a play when i went to watch it at another school in about year 10 and i remember being impressed. but for some reason i never watched the movie, ive always meant to...anyway i did.

it was one of those movies that went on a bit, very courtroom, and a bit slow in terms of action etc- but that was ok because you knew there was going to be one big showdown scene, one massive drama that at the end you were just going to go YES. and that made the wait worth it, better because you knew you were going to be rewarded.

and was i?

yes i think i was. because while the rest was not exactly fast paced, i was on a high and excited at the ending, so obviously it had an impacted. i think i would be more affected if i actually lived in the USA- since it was all about honour and the army and marines protection etc, which im sure some people feel very strongly about. anyway

there were some great lines, aside from the ones above:

 "you dont need a patch on your arm to have honour",

"dont call me son. I'm a lawyer and an officer in the United States Navy. And you're under arrest, you son of a bitch."

ok now how good is that?

and i have to say, i know Tom Cruise has the crazies at present, but he was a SERIOUSLY good actor back in the day. he nailed it. as did jack nicholson. he certainly knows how to play the nasty man.

all in all....4/5 stars. 

(although im probably a pretty easy marker in general)

i love my work pretty much. its in an office, high up in the city. ive worked here casually for a couple of years now. had a few problems at times (using the internet for personal stuff...facebook..whoops!). and the workers have changed over time, but now i really like everyone that works here (bar one...nasty old man who was supposed to only be here for six months,....but of course as my boss is an old man too he feels the need to keep him).
there is A- she has been my confidante and advice giver for about a year, i really love her. she recently got married, so she is a little bit older and much wiser. her now -husband can often be quite similar to the bf so she makes sense. she is also hilariously funny. we sing. she has also been through a lot of hard times, which you would NEVER know by looking at her now. at her wedding i almost teared up when she did, making her speech and thanking her parents for getting her through.
then there is L. at first look i wasnt sure what to think, well how wrong i was. dont judge a book by its cover! this long haired platinum blond pint sized package really is just a bundle of contradictions. she loves shopping, pink, and at times, socialising. at the same time she lives on a farm (hour and a bit to get to work each day!), she has a horse she loves, many other animals and she loves country music. some things can grind oh yes, stubborn as hell, her way of the highway. and she has issue with affection (ie. no big displays) but it is still hilarious. she is a funny one.
there are others worth mentioning, maybe ill leave it for another time.
then there is GOM. hate him. came in, stuck around while he shouldnt- is rude and thinks he is great. and yet boss loves him just cos he is another 'guy' like him and hes known him for a while so he must be good. uhmmmm news flash- when someone riles EVERYONE in the office and causes tension in the whole office- they arent good for it!!!! not to mention he was only supposed to be here for a limited amount of time!and doesnt do anything....
makes me annoyed just thinking about it.
but anyway. apart from him it is all good in the workplace. im lucky to be here while im doing my degree

i am hopeless at this blogging business.

but i am also beginning to like it, i mean i never didnt like it, but now i realllly like it.

at 3.30 this morning i was eating party pies and talking on facebook 'chat' to my best friend who is currently in croatia. was a rather random night i should say.

those party pies did NOT go down well though. and i dislike fb chat immensly. i mean isnt the point of facebook to write to people and write back when you feel like it? sum everything up in one nice little message or wall post in order to get rid of the frivolity? as well as that you have a choice- if you want to write back or not. no boring people bugging you, just ignore them.

but oh no, chat changes all that. suddenly people you dont really want to talk to (or you would have called them) pop up on right hand of screen 'hi how are u'. after a few minutes of meaningless chatter the damn thing stops working anyway and you go offline. usually i save the trouble and just appear offline.

HOWEVER last night i will give 1 point to fb chat. yes, it cut out about 3 times. but it also allowed me to have a (relatively) instant conversation with best friend, who i miss a lot and havent been able to speak to properly for about a month as she travels europe, except the occasional text at an odd hour of the morning. lucky next week she will be all settled into her uni in sweden and we can go on skype.

and while i am admitting fb chat wasnt so bad last night, skype will always be better!!!

im stupid?

ok ive changed it AGAIN thanks to someone obviously a better speller than me!!! seriously, arent law students supposed to be smart?!!!!obviously not this one!

and wow, that post was REALLY long before. i guess thats what happens when someone who thinks too much, then writes it out while they are thinking...writes wayyyyy too much.

gosh i should be doing  some uni work today, but i actually feel like sleeping.

honey crackles are really very great, i just had two, i wish there was more to be eaten!

i have also looked back on (most) of my posts and feel a bit depressed.

its all bf this, bf that, im sad, whine whine whatever. seriously- isnt there something else going on in my life apart from woes with me boyfriend (most of which i make up in my head- although there are a few genuine ones). the going away thing for eg. yes it sucks, but i guess its not really his fault. hes building a business. im 20. screw the boyfriend, ill go away by myself- which is what im doing next year. surely my life doesnt revolve around him!!!

so i am resolving to blog about different, other things, so that when i look back on this at another time, i dont go wow- get over yourself, and talk about something different PLEASE.

haha. ok im off for dinner. ill probably spend about half an hour deciding what to go get (no joke...)

ok i just changed it. i feel better now