babies and drunkenness

so things are (kind of) back on track with us
last week i really needed a break, so took of for a couple of days to my aunties in the country. ha, my parents asked why i didnt go visit THEM in the country, but aunty lives near the beach, 2 hours away as compared to 5!!! much easier. was lovely to see her little baby, the cutest niece in the world. makes me want one (much MUCH later on). they really are FULL TIME job, and she cant even crawl or run around yet!
anyway so i got back and it seemed fine...except saturday he got out after work and got sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo drunk ( he doesnt really drink that much really). i got a call at seven asking where the hell i was (i was at his house?!) cos he had rocked up at mine. where my dad was staying. great. he got very angry, i hadto go overthere, then he threw up. nice.
anyway he felt so bad (he was also being not very nice and aggro drunk). he has done this before. i got pretty angry yesterday and told him that we werent invincible and that if he did it again, then i wouldnt just be hanging aorund no matter what. he said he understood...we had a big talk............. etc etc. anyway things are fine for now. we have agreed not to talk about going away for a while cos he is sick of it, he cant now andthats that. but he will in a couple of years. hopefully.
anyway he is being all nice and we are going well for now. see what happens.
he even offered if i wanted to go on a break to think about things, cos i seem unhappy about things...and the durnk aggro-ness, if it makes me upset then maybe i should think. but him saying that made me realise i really really dont want to break up cos i love him.
i dont know how ill feel if he does it again, or how we will be, but for now, i definitely want to be with him. hopefully he will eventually change about the 'going away' thing, but for now its tired, and were both sick of talking about it.
i am just going to make some trips on my own!